Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining

This year is a determiner of my future. In this year I was graduated from high school and continued my study to the university. In fact, go to university isn’t easy. I found some difficulties at this.

Two months ago, finally me and all my school friends passed the national exam. no one didn’t pass it. It meant I must decided the university that I wanted. In this year also, the national selection for college entrance or SNMPTN in bahasa, separated into two, SNMPTN undangan and SNMPTN tulis. SNMPTN undangan is selection without any test but selected based on report mark and we can choose two university and three majoring in each university as our choices. SNMPTN tulis is selection with test like every year before. But, not all students could join SNMPTN undangan. Students who could join this selection is just student who included in rank 1-20 constantly since semester three until semester five. Luckily I could join SNMPTN undangan and in that time one of my university choices is ITB, my dream university, majoring pharmacy.

Actually, I felt pessimist that I could pass SNMPTN undangan, because there were so many competitor in this selection and usually mark of foreign student is bigger than student in the capital city. When I wait for the result, I joined selection for scholarship and selection based on report mark or PMDK (Penelusuran Minat dan Kemampuan in bahasa) at some university for the preparation if I didn’t pass at anywhere. Unfortunately, I failed at all, so I really wished I could pass SNMPTN undangan. Then, when the result of SNMPTN undangan came out, what I had thought was right. I didn’t pass SNMPTN undangan. it meant I must fought in SNMPTN tulis.

In the first time I got the result, I tried to not feel blue because from the beginning I had felt pessimist. But, when some of my classmates told me that they passed it, I started to turn green with envy and then burst into tears. They could get their dream university easily, without any test. Then my mom calm me down and said “Maybe it isn’t your way to raise your dream, calm down, you still can join SNMPTN tulis and more careful to choose the choices.” Because of that result, my mom asked me to replace my choice. Of course it was very difficult for me replacing my dream since I was in junior high school. I really confused either I keep choose my dream university or follow my mom’s advice. I also asked for guide by istikharah. After I did istikharah, I felt more confidence to follow my mom advice, because the blessing of God is the blessing of parents. I worried I would regret my decision if I didn’t follow my mom’s advice. So, I decided for choose another university that has lower passing grade than ITB as my choice in the same major, although I knew that interested people in this university isn’t too different with ITB. After that, I tried to study harder for raising it.

The day that SNMPTN tulis would be held was came. First day of SNMPTN tulis I felt depressed because the questions were out of my estimate. It was really a bolt from the blue. Then, when I arrived at home, I matched my answers with answers from a course. I found many mistakes in my answers. That day became a black day ever. Next, I did the test in second day with my best. After finished the test I just could pray more, wished for the best. I was afraid to see the result when the day which it would be announced, because I felt a little bit traumatic since the announcement of SNMPTN undangan result. In every cloud there’s a silver lining. That day was a red letter day since I passed SNMPTN tulis. I felt very touched because finally I saw my parents’ proud smile. I don’t know what I could be if I didn’t follow my mom’s advice. Finally I become a college student now :') 
and it's the best birthday present i've ever get, thanks Allah :')